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December 4, 2007 Me and Jesus Music has greatly affected my life since I was a little girl. Whether it was my mother singing me a lullaby or simply listening to the radio there was always something musical going on around me. I started Victory Baptist Private School in the first grade where choir was a required part of the curriculum. We had two big concerts a year and started preparing for them months in advance. In the seventh grade I started in orchestra learning to play the viola. When I wasn't singing or playing for school I was doing it at home and later at church. I have liked and still like many different genres of music in my life and even though I am now mainly a Rock fan, although I must confess at one point I was obsessed with the Backstreet boys. I am now part of Academics Plus Charter School's choir and sing at all my church's big events. Through it all there is one song that has felt like it matched me as a person whether I am singing it at church or in the shower. That song is Me and Jesus by Stellar Kart. When there's nowhere else to turn All your bridges have been burned Feels like you've hit rock bottom Don't give up it's not the end Open up your heart again When you feel like no one understands Where you are God has always been a big part of my life. I've been going to church since I was little and was saved at the age of six. That does not however mean that I have lived the prefect life. I personally hit rock bottom in the seventh grade when I was bullied so badly that I suffered a mental breakdown and my mother was forced to pull me out of public school to home school me. Looking back I find myself wondering if I couldn't have done something differently that would have changed what happened. Maybe if I had stood up for myself more or if I had been more outgoing the kids would have lefi me alone. You can't change the past though and to be honest I wouldn't want to because these are the events that made me who I am today. Around this time I was forced to take two different medications to help stabilize my moods and I did some things I'm not proud of that hurt my family. During this time I sort of turned away from God. I mean if he loved me so much and was so powerful why couldn't he make all the bad things just go away. My family was very supportive throughout all of this and with their help I was finally able to find my way back to God and get off all my medication. Afier all that we've been through By now you know I've doubted too But every time my head was in my hands You said to me My family has been very supportive of me and my dreams since I was born. They were the ones who helped me to form my view of right and wrong and were never afraid to share stories of past mistakes and lessons learned just like in the song. God has never left me either though there was a time in my life when I felt he had abandoned me. I have since learned that in truth he never leaves only waits in the wings for us to acknowledge that we can't do everything on our own and to ask for his help in all things. In my own way I try to be as supportive with my friends as my family has been with me. I want to be a shoulder to cry on as well as someone to laugh with. Though I may not succeed I can only hope that those closest to me know how much I care and want to be there to support them. I have made so many mistakes in my life that for a long time I didn't believe I deserved a loving family, good friends, and especially the love of God himself but as time passed those around me helped me to see the truth. Hold on to what we've got This is worth any cost So make the most Of life that's borrowed Love like there's no tomorrow God does not want us to dwell on past mistakes for what good does it really do us. He wants us to learn from them and move on because to dwell on those mistakes is doubt his ability to erase them. Everyday we live on borrowed time never knowing when it will be up. We need to live life everyday like it is our life and stop sweating the little stuff because when we che it's not going to matter that the woman at the grocery store charged you for an extra can of green beans. The only thing that is going to matter is that you believe and that your name is God's book. I've decided to try to live in the now rather than the past or the future and never to go to bed angry. Someone loves you Even when you don't think so Don't you know? You got me and Jesus By your side Through the fight You will never be alone On your own You got me and Jesus Me and Jesus When there's no where else to turn All your bridges have been burned Feel's like you've hit rock bottom Don't give up it's not the end Open up your heart again When you feel like no one understands Where you are Someone loves you Even when you don't think so Don't you know? You got me and Jesus By your side Through the fight You will never be alone On your own You got me and Jesus After all that we've been through By now you know I've doubted too But every time my head was in my hands You said to me Chorus x 1 Hold on to what we've got This is worth any cost So make the most Of life that's borrowed Love like there's no tomorrow Chorus x3 |